- I have no intention of changing my diet or starting to exercise to improve my body
- I do not, and will not, drastically alter my appearance to impress anyone, including women
- And, as far as I'm concerned, if someone truly loves me, my looks will not take precedent
Let's start at the top and work our way down. I'll avoid rating using a numerical scale to refrain from oversimplifying things.
Head and Face
This thing is all over the joint, man. Starting with my hair, I actually like it the way it is. I'm no hair stylist, but I like my hair to be an average kinda length like it is now. Too short and it's alienating, too long and it gets in my face and causes more breakouts on my forehead, not to mention how messy it is.
My facial hair is nothing short of inconsistent. I'd rather just not have it. I originally wanted to have a five-o'clock shadow, but I really think I look better clean shaven. Fucking useless hair :P
My eyebrow—well, that's the problem: there's just one. I don't know where the tweezers are, but as soon as I find 'em, this sonofabitch is gonna be his own next door neighbour :P From a distance, you can't really notice, but the closer I get to the mirror, the more likely I am to put my finger over the top of my nose so I can pretend those follicles aren't there.
My eyes are fine. Gud size, gud colour, not too close together, not too far apart—not much to say, really.
Sometimes, I think my ears are a little big for my head, but oh well. They're not too bad.
Mah nose is just mah nose. No complaints. The only improvement I can think of would be to get the congestion out of it (and all my other sinuses).
My mouth is all sorts of craptastic :P First off, my upper front teeth are out of place—not all bent in different directions, just in this bell curve due to me sucking my thumb as a kid. I hated the orthodontic stuff they gave me to fix it, but now I look at it and kinda want it fix'd. I want them straight because of the look, of course (I hate photos where I'm grinning because I always look like a retard :P),but also because my tongue barely reaches the front of my teeth, and that can make it hard to annunciate words. I also have ankyloglossia (tongue is attached to the bottom of my mouth), which (a) makes it even harder to articulate things, (b) makes it harder to kiss properly, and (c) makes my tongue look like a butt crack. Add to that what it allows me to say, and one must come to the conclusion that my tongue is a complete asshole :P
The skin on my face has pimples all over it, which is kinda saddening. From a distance, it doesn't look too bad, but up close, I'm not too fond of it. There's a general redness to my face which always seems to be there (almost certainly due to the way I eat), and that I can deal with, but I hate it when I get these bulges of pus shaped like baseball mounds—they really suck >.< It's not so much the look I detest as it is the pain when I have to scratch near them or when I shave over them. I'd like them to go to alleviate both the cosmetic and the physical aches which they bring.
Torso & Upper Ligaments
My shoulders are just... there. Nothing much to mention, apart from the fact they have started to breakout too. My skin clings to my clavicle, making my skinniness super apparent to anyone who notices.
My arms are k, for someone my size, at least. They can make me feel inferior cos there's almost no trace of muscle (seeing shirtless guys is just... *snif*), but on my own, I don't think they look that bad. My arms aren't hairy like my legs are, which seems inconsistent, but I think my arms would need to be bigger for the hair to look suitable. I think hairy stick-figure arms would look a bit wild :P
From a distance, my chest is an area I'm not displeased with. We've had a few hot days lately, meaning I've been at home shirtless (I would apologise for the image but that defeats the purpose of this exploration :P), and I've noticed myself turning to my mirror when sitting down and going "That's not too bad. You might be small and devoid of muscle, but you're not fat, you're not malapportioned, your skin tone is pretty consistent... it's k :)". I really don't know if any woman on this planet would find my chest attractive (I find it pretty hard to believe, and evidence is yet to surface :P), but I don't think it's that unattractive either. When you get up close, you'll see small pimples and a slight redness on my upper chest due to the breakouts spreading downwards, but I'm sure a bit of acne cream can clear that up.
My back is in much the same regard: not bad, just alright. Pimples can be found on the upper portions, but, as I've said, they're not beyond removal.
There is almost no hair on my chest or my back, either. Again, I think my body's nature as 'small' distances me from a need for chest hair. And I've heard nothing good about back hair, nothing at all. One of the boys who lives next door (who's around my age) has back hair, and it's not exactly flattering :P I do have a little hair on my chest: some just under my belly button, and some coming out of my nipples. No joke, I'm serious: there are hairs growing out of both my nipples. They look and feel more like pubic hairs, being thicker and stiffer than the regular hairs on my body, but just... why? Why do they need to be there? They're like these nonconformist follicles that decided to squat there one time, then found out they liked it there and never found the will to move. I would just pluck 'em out, but it's my nipple, man... it's sensitive :P
...I seriously hope the first girl to see me naked doesn't freak the fuck out when she sees those...
Pelvis & Lower Ligaments
My hips are bony, probably one of the boniest parts of my body. I've never really known what the male pelvis is supposed to look like, though. I look at guys in porn videos, or who have loose pants on (for research purposes >.<) and go "...that just looks fuckin' weird, man." Toned guys seem to have this diagonal bulge on either side of their pelvis that practically points towards their cock—that has to be one of the ugliest things I've ever seen in my life. The female pelvis is all kinds of awesome, given it's a size I can appreciate; but the male pelvis... I'ma just savour my ignorance :P
My penis is just average. I've measured him: his length and girth while erect line up almost perfectly with the numbers. I'm fine with that :) I have phimosis, which means I can't pull my foreskin down along my shaft past the head of my cock, but some steroid cream can fix that if it becomes an issue. I don't shave my pubic hair off, but I might if I'm in a relationship where the girl would prefer it. I'd certainly prefer a shaved pussy (just going off what I've seen), so it's only fair for me to be willing to do the same for them if they want it. I must say, though, as weird as this sounds, there are little curls down there that can be fun to twirl around my finger. I keep it clean, so while I think it's a little strange, I don't think it's unclean to play with my pubes. They do make it harder to scratch my crotch, though, so their removal would be beneficial.
My legs are also rather skinny, and I'm not fond of my legs being exposed, especially my upper legs. I almost never wore my senior high school shorts for this reason: at least when my legs were covered, I could give the illusion they didn't look like chicken legs :P I've since become more comfortable with exposing them—it's not like I've ever had some chronic fear of judgement from people seeing my legs—but I'm not really all that thrilled with the way they look. At least they've got a good amount of hair on them to make them look a little more normal :P
My feet aren't all that special. I like the fact that my big toe is longer than my second toe—not that I'd give that much of a fuck about the size of someone's toes, but having the toes all end in a nice diagonal line looks better to me, rather than having the second toe jut out and ruin the pattern. I've been told I have biggish feet, at least considering my height. I dunno how true that is, but I guess it's just a matter of opinion. Nothing to complain about, though :)
So yeah, that's my body. I thought about doing a similar thing where I'd describe the physical traits I like in girls, but, to be honest, I can't pinpoint many consistencies with what I'm into. Some girls I've liked had a bigger build with meat on their bones; others were petite and skinny, almost nothing of them. Some of them had big boobs, others had smaller ones—some of them I didn't even care. Some of them had legs I could look at all day, others drew me more with their eyes than anything else. It's all over the place. I think I take girls as they come rather than starting with physical prerequisites and using them to determine how attracted I am to their body.
It would also help to have a girl I'm physically infatuated with so I could have something to go off :P
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