I went to my best friend's 21st this evening. It was a really good night: nothing went wrong, and I only felt uncomfortable when it came time to eat, which is the norm.
The food thing is actually the first topic I wanna discuss. I know there's a lot of food I find disgusting even though other people find delicious, and I know it's largely an issue of perspective and psychology, but I swear to god, some things are so repulsive that I can't imagine why I'd ever want to eat them. The birthday was at a steakhouse, so it's no surprise that people were eating steak. The person next to me ordered steak, so I got to see up close what it looked and smelled like. It was not good. It was not good at all. It didn't look very appetising, but meat products never have for me. It's just gross. It's not a moral concern on my part (I don't think I could give any less of a fuck about animals if I tried :P); it's purely a reaction to the textures I'm seeing.
Worse still was the smell: it smelt horrible! It smelt so fucking bad! Every time he cut into it, it let out this... wretched, repulsive odour. And I smelled it repeatedly: it didn't get better the more I smelled it. It was just terrible. This didn't ruin my evening, don't get me wrong--I wasn't freaking out or anything. I was just blown away by the magnitude of awful that meal smelled of. While I don't eat bread, fruit, or vegetables, those things at least look decent, and smell kinda nice. Certain types of bread can smell awesome, and fruit can look pretty tasty at times, even if I am averse to actually eating it. Meat though? Pretty much the worst fucking thing ever right now. Bacon looks and smells awful, beef looks and smells awful, chicken looks and smells awful... I'm seeing a pattern here :P I don't think I'll ever eat any dead animals. And I know that's OK, but it does mean that even if my eating habits do improve, I still have to be that fussy cunt who won't eat stuff :P
Also, this is relevant, and has the potential to be extremely relevant, for reasons I can't quite bring up yet. Argh :P
Anyway, that aside, let's look at the social side of things. It was pretty comfortable! I mean, I was surrounded by my friends, and it's my best friend's party, so obviously I'm gonna have all the funz. But it was easier than I would normally expect such an outing to be. On the way there, someone in the car said they were nervous about meeting new people. I wasn't nervous at all--like, I just wasn't. New people usually freak me out, but I honestly had no issue. I actually wanted to meet the new people, cos they've always sounded like amicable folks (and they were :D), so I wasn't nervous at all about meeting them for the first time, even though I never had before. I seem to be getting a lot better around people I don't know. And granted, the things I'm really scared of (cold introductions) weren't going to happen, so my worst fears couldn't possibly be realised. But I still managed to talk and joke with one of the new people (the other one wasn't too talkative, which is fair enough given he knew hardly anyone at the party), which is above and beyond what I normally expect of myself. I was never uncomfortable for any social reason, and I do mean never. I even pitched in and did one of the 'hip hip's when we were singing Happy Birthday and the person who originally said "hip hip" didn't quite commit to saying it three times. I never say 'hip hip'! Holy shit, dude! Come to think of it, I never even thought about potential social awkwardness, much less experienced it. Progress :D
The only thing I think I could've done better with is thinking of more elaborate ways to describe what I've been up to, seeing as that's such a common question at these things. I don't wanna bang on and on about stuff, but sometimes, I get home after going to an event, and think "man, I could've answered that question in more depth". It's also kinda hard when the person I'm talking to doesn't ask follow up questions, cos then the only way to keep going is to bang on and on, but what can you do, right?
So yeah, I had heaps of fun. Hopefully my next blog article will be more... interesting ;)
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