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So, having learned about phimosis, having learned I have phimosis, and having tried jerking off with a condom in spite of my phimosis (to no avail in terms of pleasure), I've decided to start trying to fix it. Over the past two weeks, on most days, I've tried to stretch my foreskin in the shower such that I'' eventually be able to pull it back. I think, though, that phimosis may only be one of the problems I have with my dick.

This is the part where you should realise where this is going and stop reading if you are squeamish :P

I think my foreskin might be attached to my frenulum (head). I can't see it very well, mainly because I'm in the shower and there's water in the way, but also cos I can't exactly get up close and personal due to where my dick is in relation to my eyes. But it just seems like there's this bit of skin joining the two down the bottom, a bit of skin I can only see if I pull the foreskin back far enough to see the bottom of my frenulum. When I pull back any further, it hurts, but I don't know if that's only because the foreskin is taut and can't stretch anymore, or because I'm tugging on this bit of skin (it could be both). I'm hesitant to pull any harder because I don't want to hurt myself or end up in hospital; it's not worth it.

The thing is, if there is a bit of skin connecting my foreskin and my frenulum, that makes this more complicated. From what I'm reading, this connection is there from birth, but is supposed to go away during puberty—unfortunately, for some guys, it hangs around. Some are a bit more lucky in that, when they pull their foreskin back over time, like I'm currently doing, it breaks on its own; for those a bit less lucky, it needs medical attention. From what I can gather, it's just a quick snip while you're under anaesthetic, but under certain circumstances, the only solution may be circumcision. I really don't want medical attention, not on my dick. When I first read about it, I was like "Well fuck it! I won't have sex then. It's not worth this shit. I don't even wanna think about it! shudder". But if it's over in a day and I'm not getting circumcised, I think I can deal with that. Circumcision, though? Fuck off. Leave my foreskin alone.

It made me uncomfortable to realise I might need surgery, though. Medical procedures in general make me restless, and just looking at my dick with this new information grosses me out. It's not a pleasant sight, and an even less pleasant thought in my head as to what I might have to do to get this thing fixed. I guess I'm lucky in that I don't have a girlfriend bugging me to get it fixed so she can be properly intimate with me, and in that I don't have women regularly hitting on me, only being rejected due to my penile fopahs. But I'm still not comfortable with this, really.

Stupid hipster penis: just had to be different.

EDIT: I just checked my little guy out again while he was flaccid, and I can see the little bit of skin much clearer now. I'm now certain the foreskin and frenulum are joined :(